i had the loveliest of days today. didn't sleep much last night (thank you prednisone) so hunter had trouble waking me up this morning. he made me my daily cup of tea and let the sunshine in. turned the music up and prepared my breakfast. washed my hair in the sink and even learned how to give a proper blow-dry. yes, my 20 year old brother knows how to use a blow dryer! he tidied up my room and helped me organize my mail, hanging more stamps beside my bed (i cut them all out and staple them to ribbons). quinn and ming arrived and hunter made us all a lovely lunch. have i mentioned my brother is awesome?
i also just feel the need to share my love for my friends.
serious, amazing giggle-filled love.
we had our triangle christmas together.
quinn and ming and i call ourselves the triangle because the house we lived in together for 2 years was in the shape of a triangle. it was the 3rd and 4th floor of an old house. quinn and mings rooms were beside each other on the 3rd floor and my room was above them both with the peak in the middle sloping down on both sides, you could only stand up in the middle of my room. hence the triangle.
triangle christmas was amazing.
i gave both the girls their own versions of my signature charm necklace. tiny little squares of silver that i filled with pictures of us and the words 'triangle' on one side and 'love' on the other. plus a unique charm for each.
they gave me beautiful photos that ming took at shambahla with her old manual camera, blown up and framed. i will take pictures of them and share them with you tomorrow.
ming gave quinn a beautiful old locket that is as old as the ancient apartment building they live in now.
quinn gave ming an 'i believe in you!' present of black and white film for her photo projects, a moleskin to record all her new plans and a beginners guide to french to encourage her dream of moving to montreal.
but even better then all that was just a day of laughing. when we did our years review at denny's last week i felt like i couldn't even remember past september and all i could recall was the sorrow i felt. i couldn't remember the good times. i knew they were there but i couldn't seem to see them. i looked at my friends and all i could think was...'we survived...barely.. if this is living...'
but today? today i could only seem to remember the happiest moments with these girls.
living in the triangle.
never alone.
always someone to cuddle up with
watch bad tv
tell about your day
or whose outfit on facebook is hideous
always another closet to raid
to tell you which shade of red lipstick looks better
just having 2 people who knew every instant of my life so much so that when we talked around other people we didn't make sense, just random thoughts connected by previous conversations and experiences, no explanation necessary.
dancing topless in the kitchen
bathroom photo shoots
boxes of wine
a trunk full of costumes
morning texts leading to a pile up in one persons bed
not getting out of bed til noon
2 o'clock breakfasts at zen
sushi adventures
but most of all
the conversations
about everything
figuring out where we stood in the world
what we believed in
opinions
trying them on for size
challenging each other
supporting
loving
and laughing
oh the laughter
fits
bursts
attempting to breathe
holding it in only makes it worse
begging them to stop
not even knowing where we started
one glance
and it starts again
tears leaking
streaming
trying not to pee my pants
silently shaking
torture
yet
absolute bliss
free from judgement
free from pain
free from holding back
i miss them being my every day
my every waking moment
but i am still so glad that they are still here
still such presence in my life
they ended up staying right through till dinner. bethany joined our giggle fits and i gave her her christmas present necklace too.
i am so lucky to have a family that embraces my friends. my house these days just adds more applesauce and salad to make dinner stretch for whoever is over. a delicious dinner brought by caring neighbours spread for all my family and 3 friends. michelle and megan joined the table so by 8 o'clock my kitchen looked like a party!
my parents know my friends so well now that i live at home and hunter has always been included so to have everyone sitting around and talking and laughing just felt like heaven. when the bad days are bad it is lonely and tough but when the good days are good i feel like i am flying!
quinn and ming left after dinner. beth and michelle and megan tucked into my big red bed and we had good old girl talks about love and loss and life and great things and tough things. it's funny how old friends become new friends as you refigure out what you've learned in each others absence and share and grow and get to know each other again. theres a certain comfort there that i'm so grateful for. such good people.
and that was my day! very fun and full of adventures even though i didn't leave the house.
the pics that i used for the girls necklaces....
ming and eva


quinn and eva


beth and eva

plus some bonus ones that i just found of my awesome girlies!


